Baazigar 🥷

So, I am back here to write something. Right now, my life is all about waking up late in the morning and being busy with family throughout the day. But when the night comes and it’s peaceful, but I can’t sleep, it feels like something is missing in my life . I’ve been feeling this way for 6-7 years. In between, there was a lot of anxiety and stress, but now it’s fine. Because now I’ve learned (maybe) to control my thoughts. Sometimes, time seems to drag on, but if you look at it, it’s slipping away like sand. It’s a strange illusion. Maybe by the time I fully understand all these games of life, my time will be up. Oh, I’ve started talking negatively again. Yes, so I was saying that in the tranquility of the night, I feel like something is missing. A quest is ongoing… God must have chosen me for some greater purpose; I believe that. I want to see this delusion turn into reality very soon… By the way, have you noticed that I can control my thoughts now? 

Haar kar jeetne wale ko baazigar kehte hain. 😎

-S.S.

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