House no.? ๐Ÿšช

 3:00 am

I have said in my blog that I have started having trouble staying positive and that I want to step out of my comfort zone. To be honest, even a minor change makes me upset. If something goes wrong at home, like if my parents fall ill or if someone changes their tone while talking, I get anxious just thinking about old friends I no longer talk to. Right now, I get anxious even when I have to go away from home for an exam. I am very friendly, but I am not friends with everyone. I can't adjust with everyone, but maybe others can. I sit on the right side of my bed in my room, leaning against a pillow. If someone else sits there, I remove them from that spot because i feel strange sitting on the other side of the bed. Isn’t it weird? I know it is!! I am scared of changes. But I know that if there are no changes, there is no growth in life because you don't get any different experiences. Anyway, I don't know why I become so anxious... but I think I get too scared. If there is an exam, whether it goes well or badly depends on how well I prepared, and the result depends on luck and how I perform. It's such a simple concept, yet I am always scared. That's why I have never given a government exam. I’m afraid of failing. Should I start drinking Mountain Dew? เคกเคฐ เค•े เค†เค—े เคœीเคค เคฎिเคฒे เคถाเคฏเคฆ..

I am scared to leave home; I feel like I might get lost in the crowd. My mom says that if you feel scared in a place, just think in your mind that you are at home and your fear will go away. As comfort increases, fear disappears.This seriously works for me. And no matter how long it takes, I always return home... This time I am trying to make myself understand . When I come home, I shouldn't come with a long sad face; I should come happily. เคฌाเคนเคฐ เค•िเคคเคจी เคญी เคญीเคก़ เค•्เคฏों เคจ เคนो.. เค˜เคฐ เค•ा เคชเคคा เค•ोเคˆ เคญूเคฒเคคा เคนै เค•्เคฏा เคญเคฒा??? Now whether it's 27/31 or 31/27... if there's confusion, it will be a little late, right? Or maybe I'll get a little lost on the way... but if I have to go home, even if I get a little lost, it will be okay...

S.S.


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