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02:05 am

I have been feeling a desire to earn money lately, which I didn't have before. I remember when I was in college, I thought I could easily get any job. To be honest, I still can, but the problem is that I've given up on myself. However, for the past few weeks, I've been thinking about ways to earn money. I want something that suits me and will make me happy. I watched a movie called "Meiyazhagan," where a bicycle plays a significant role. I also have a strong attachment to bicycles. I remember when I was in school, in 5th grade, I came first, and my parents asked me what I wanted as a gift. I was very shy and a content child, i told them to give me a bicycle if I came first again the next year. Unfortunately, I ended up coming second in 6th grade. Then, in 7th grade, I did come first, but on the day of the prize distribution, I received the trophy for second rank. When I got home, I didn't know how to ask for the bicycle.

I did get scolded a bit, but what can I say... The next day when I came home from school, my mom was very happy and put a teeka on me, fed me sweets, and asked me to close my eyes. I was surprised, but when I closed my eyes, my mom gave me a box with a gold ring and said she bought it for me. I asked why, and then my mom told me that she received a call from my class teacher, who informed her that I was actually first rank, but there was some confusion yesterday. I felt a sense of peace in my heart, and I took the ring. I wore it to school for a week, but for some reason, I felt overwhelmed by that ring, so I told my mom to keep it safe so I wouldn't lose it. So, I returned the ring, but I still had my heart set on the bicycle. I thought I would work hard in 8th grade and come first, but I never did; I stayed in the 2nd or 3rd position. I was so crazy about bicycles that I would sneak out to learn riding on the guard uncle's bicycle at the hostel at 5-6 in the morning. But when I finally learned to ride, I felt like I had outgrown the age for bicycles. I had grown up.

But now I think I need to earn money so that I can buy a bicycle for myself. That day will be the most beautiful day of my life when I bring home a bicycle. There are many things I want to get for myself and for my family as well, but for now, the bicycle is at the top of my list. If I suppress the desires of my younger self, how will I be able to keep my present self happy? 

S.S.

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