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                                        02:21 am

I am in a condition like these pigeons, I am on the edge. Sometimes I feel like I have understood everything about life and that I will just focus on work, but then I end up in the same mess. Such actions will either make me soar to great heights or bring me crashing down.

Isn't it strange? I had promised myself to stay consistent with whatever I was doing... but I couldn't. To be honest, I'm feeling embarrassed while writing this blog. There's so much guilt that I've just been procrastinating. And I haven't written anything for so many days... though during these days, I socialized a lot. I met my old friends too. Old memories were refreshed. I didn't spend a lot of time with them, but whatever time I did, it felt like we were together... it was like a recap of so many years. It was nice to see everyone moving forward. Some people are going abroad for further studies... some are getting married. Some are planning to switch their jobs, and some even have kids now... and me?

 Am I where I was before? Maybe not. If you look closely, there's no change in me, but if you really examine, there's a huge difference. Earlier, I didn't have acceptance within me. Maybe I didn't want to see myself as weak, but now I understand that accepting the truth is not a cowardly act, but a very wise and brave thing to do. The life I have, I chose it myself. Every life choice has brought me here (except for a few events that were never in my control), so why regret? By the way, I read somewhere that life doesn't start when you are born, but when you begin to understand life. Gradually, I am starting to understand the complexities. I am sorting things out. Am I taking too long? There's still time, right? Just starting a little late can't be wrong, in my opinion."

-S.S.